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Going up each step Kye felt like he was walking towards a new chapter in his life, one where he was uncertain and nervous. Yet he tried to take strength from the rest of the squad that was right behind him.
He thought about what Carver said. His words about how all he's gotta do is just hold the boy in his arms, then he'll know. Carver's experience must have been much similar. So if he was able to get through it, then Kye figured he could as well.
After going up the last stair, he was just a single step away from the door.
He lifted his hands up to take off his sunglasses and slipped them into his pocket. His green eye's taking in the light now. It was surprisingly sunny today. He turned his head and looked in the direction of the sun without looking right at it.
It seemed like it was looking right back at him. It always looked like that really, like it's shining directly at you.
He turned back to the door, lifted his gloved hand up, he felt it shaking slightly.
Was he really this nervous? He looked at his hand and was almost amazed himself at his own feelings. He must have been over thinking this. Just remember what Carver said, nothing is decided yet, not until you hold that boy in your arms.
Still though...
It was damn hard not to be nervous.
His fingers curled into a fist and his knuckles hit the door lightly three times.
After doing it he placed both his hands in his pockets and waited, keeping his head down.
It only took a few seconds for the sound of a deadbolt lock being turned open to hit Kye's ears.
Kye's unease seemed to grow, a wave of nausea running over him, causing some of his muscles to tighten as he heard the lock.
The door was pulled open.
Kye's eye's stayed down, yet he forced them up just enough to see...Her again...
"Hey" She greeted simple.
The first thing he noticed was her long, flowing red hair, upon open the door her hair danced with it lightly like crimson sparkling curtains. The natural deep red color
was very noticeable. The next thing was her eye's. Those cerulean blue pools that surrounded her pupils of her's were like mystic spirits that were just as equally eye catching as her hair.
"Hey Akane..." He eventually was able to pull out.
She looked at him for a moment, seeming just as nervous as he was.
Her eye's turned the rather...Interesting group of people that was on her front yard.
"Are they coming in as well?"
"No not yet, I'd like to do this on my own first" He replied
She looked up at him, then nodded her head before moving out of the way for him to come inside.
He walked in, hands still in his pockets.
Closing the door behind him, Akane walked across the living room to the kitchen.
"Do you want some coffee?" She offered.
Kye looked around the house, the one he knew like the back of his hand. At least that was back when he lived here with her.
Walking in one would see the large living room with dark green and golden designs, the furniture was also of earth nation design. There was nothing fancy about the decor, what made the place special was the art on the walls.
Drawings, painting, landscapes, images and abstracts, all different kinds of art were on the walls. Some Kye liked, and some he didn't.
He wasn't in the mood for coffee, but perhaps it would make things feel more...Normal.
"Yeah sure" He replied, walking towards the dark red sofa and sitting down right next to the arm rest.
Akane didn't say a word, just like how Kye did the same.
He knew that the boy was around here somewhere. He tried to prepare himself in case he would come running in for something. Thinking of that though, he couldn't hear the sounds of a child, he must have been outside in the back yard.
Akane came walking out two cups of coffee in her hands, one had steam coming out from it, the other did not.
She walked up to him and placed the cup of the coffee table before walking the couch that was across from the one Kye was sitting on.
Sitting down she took a sip of her coffee.
"So...How are things?" He asked her quietly.
He knew this whole situation was awkward, after how they broke up 3 years ago. They had both let each other go a long time ago. Yet now here they were, almost forced to oddly get into each others lives again. Were it not for the boy, Kye and Akane might never have seen each other again.
"Oh things are good, I'm working in the gardens of the Earth Nation Kingdom now, I might be getting a new place in first class pretty soon" She told him, trying to over come the very uncomfortable and unsettling feeling that she had about all this.
Kye nodded his head.
"Good...Good" He replied quietly, looking to his right to the fire place for a second. He noticed the picture's of him and Akane together were gone. Not a big surprise but something he noticed.
"How about you, everything alright?" She asked him before taking a sip of coffee.
"It's going well...We uhhh, just got back from a mission before coming straight here. An infiltration and recon job back on Kyoshi." He explained with relative ease, he was rather thankful she asked about his work actually. He was at work all the time so talking about it was calming.
However after he told her she was quiet. Just like he was.
After 5 seconds of silence, Akane figured she would have to talk about this at some point.
"Kye I-"
"I don't want to get back together!" He suddenly pushed out, interrupting her in the process.
Akane's mouth was left open slightly, followed by a shifting of her eye's and her gaze turning away from him.
What he just said was the very thing she was going to try and say, but only she was going to try and gently push the subject on him.
Kye himself felt his fingers tingling for some reason. He just lept right into it without thinking. You could say he was just getting tired of feeling weird.
"After three years I let go, I closed that wound a long time ago. It was hard, considering we were together for almost our entire lives, but I did it...So...I don't wanna go through that again" He told her with passion in his voice. Remembering old times like they were distant memories.
Their was still a little pain when he remembered.
From the first time they met when they were just kids, when they grew up together, struggled together, lived together. Every child hood memory involving one another in some form.
Akane was Kye's life, and Kye was Akane's life.
Looking at Akane after saying that, he saw she was looking away from him, yet those deep blue eye's of her's were shimmering from the sunlight. Her eye's were moist. She seemed to feel the same pain just as much as he did. Perhaps more so? He wasn't sure.
She nodded her head in response though.
"With..." She felt her throat tighten a little, causing her words to stop, she closed her eye's for a moment and took a deep breath.
"With Enoch though...We'll have to stay in contact so..." Her throat tightened up again, their past weighing heavy on her heart.
Kye felt concerned for her at this point, yet he was listening, letting her take her time to speak.
"I'm sorry Kye, I'm so sorry" She finally pushed out with a pained expression of regret on her face.
Kye's eye's were looking straight at her, he felt his heart skip a beat when she said that.
He knew her well, he knew that she was sorry for a long time, so it didn't come as a surprise, but she never actually said it. After she left him, they had never spoken again until she sent that messenger hawk just 2 years ago.
He wasn't really sure what to say. However he could feel her pain as well.
"It's just that I know...I know that you knew already but...I just never said it so...I wanted to tell you. She explained with her face now red and her eye's moist and sparkling.
She lived with this regret for three years, yet she buried it deep within, not letting it out until now.
She left him, and for such a...Selfish reason. Kye was so busy at work back then that they never had time to be together, so they grew distant. Yet Kye always tried when he could to keep her happy. However despite his attempts her pain of being alone was too grave, and she ended up taking in the comforts of another man. She was not that kind of person, yet all it took was one brief moment of weakness while in the company of a close friend, and that was all it took. She kept it hidden from Kye for 2 months after. Kye himself found out eventually though. When he did, Akane felt that she wasn't worthy of him. So she left him, not considering his own feelings on the matter. Her intention was to spare him the pain and hardship, however she hadn't considered the possibility of him forgiving her. So when she left, Kye was forced to be alone.
Naturally, Kye's squad leader Carver noticed how different Kye was, and he confronted her. While she acted tough and made it seem like his harsh words did nothing, Carver in fact destroyed her, causing her to kick him out.
The intense regret and pain caused her to run away from Kye completely.
Where the pain came from was that she never let Kye do anything. She led the entire process. While she tried to spare Kye from feeling bad from any of this, she just in fact made things far worse.
Kye knew a long time ago that she was sorry. After being together for so long they grew a level of empathy for each other where they could quite literally feel what the other was feeling.
Hearing her say it now though, he felt the barrage of emotions she was feeling, and even though he felt no emotional pull to do so. A tear fell from his left eye, as did one from her left eye as well.
It was both a gift and a curse, regardless of if he wanted to or not, they both would feel what the other feels. No matter what they might do, or where they might go, their souls were permanently locked.
Akane hung her head down, looking away from him and she lifted her knee's up to her chest, and her arms hugged her rib cage.
Kye felt the same thing, yet he merely turned his head away from her. He didn't know what to say, or if he even could say anything. The tightness Akane was feeling on her throat was affecting Kye as well, preventing him from speaking. It felt almost like a spirit was choking him.
He had to stop this, he had to let her know how he felt in some way. However he couldn't say anything. So with nothing else he could think of. He slowly placed his boots firmly on the ground, and stood himself up.
Akane looked up at him, her powerful blue eye's looking right into his green eye's by mere instinct.
Looking down at her for a second, he motioned his head upwards, as though he was telling her to stand up.
Her legs moved down to the floor slightly, feeling his sudden spike of adrenaline and sincerity.
She placed her feet on the ground, however she stopped when Kye took two slow steps towards her, his shadow casting over her.
He stood right over her, just a few inch's away. His eye's piercing into her's, his gaze was like an abstract painting that one could see an image in, but had to look much closer in order to understand.
She placed his hands on her thighs before placing her feet firmly on the ground.
She rose up slightly, her chest almost brushing against his stomach. However just as she rose, Kye's arms suddenly shot out on both sides of her.
His hands both crossing together slightly before he placed them both on her back and pulled her in against him. His arms feeling the warmth of her body, and her chest against the top of his stomach.
Her eye's widened, followed by a deep gasp as she was suddenly embraced by an invitation of Kye's warmth.
A feeling she once considered the greatest gift of allHer forearms were against his shoulders. In the shock of everything she had to take a second to comprehend that Kye's arms were now wrapped around her.
Her hands hesitated, but she slowly moved her arms down, and let her fingers trail along his chest and go around his rib cage to his back, where she placed both her hands on his back, and her head rested against his chest. Her head just below his neck. She closed her eyes and listened to his heart beat. The smell of her garden flowers on his clothes. Her heart beat went in sync with his, and she was able to exhale a long breath.
Kye looked straight ahead for a second before he looked down and settled his arms on her lower back. The smell of spring lilies in her hair as he lightly rested his chin on her head.
The feelings of pain he felt were gone now, because her's all but vanished. Where he wasn't able to speak, he let his actions speak for him.
His throat relaxed finally, and he felt no more weight on his stomach from the anxiety.
Although Kye would never get back with her, if but for a moment they both could pretend the past never existed. They both were then able enjoy this moment of peace.
Although no words needed to be spoken, Kye felt he only needed to mention three of them.
"I forgive you" (Part 2 end)